I used to have a kind of irrational fear of red because if I touched it, someone would bleed. OCD is so weird. I also used to think that I was capable of killing the people I loved. The thought would come into my head and it would be so scary! But I guess, I just knew I wouldn't act on it and that calmed me. I don't really remember how exactly I got through it. I guess time just proved to me that I wasn't really going to do that. It's the feeling that's hard to get rid of... the one that goes with the thought. Like paranoia or something. Hope you get through it. It's just the OCD.

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Yeahhh, I have had some really f*ed up images go through my head of just this insane carnage. Usually it's picturing myself in it, though, but I have been known to visualize other people torn apart and whatnot. You're not insane. You know that you would never hurt those that you love, and so do they. Think of it like a dream; you can't control what you dream about. Sometimes, things are just in your mind for no explicable reason, and all you can do is let them pass.

The advice I can give you is that you should seek help from a doctor/therapist. These types of thoughts can break you down. Unfortunately my thoughts caused me to have a nervous breakdown. I got through it by getting E.C.T. & attending group therapy because I was so bad off that I needed them. Please try not to let the thoughts control you. My thoughts controlled me.