been on here a few times with the same senario. I am currently clinically depressed due to my divorce last year and my OCD has come back as well.I am receiving treatment. I continue though to have obsessive thoughts about suicide. This has gone on since after Chrisimas. I am very scared about these thoughts as I have them all day long. I don't really believe I want to die but I obsess about what it would be like to be dead and almost telling myself it wouldn't be so bad. I also obsess about the act of taking pills to do it. Anything that would cause distress in this area I seem to be obsessing about it. it's almost like it's snowballing into the most stressful thoughts one could have. As I said though I do not believe I have a desire to die but having those type of thoughts all day makes you wonder, especially if you are depressed. My Doc believes it all stems from the depression and has made my OCD flare up pretty badly. I don't know. I guess I just want some more reassurance or advice that I really don't want to do this and that it will go away once I begin to start feeling better. my Doc increased my Zoloft to 200mg, added abilify and klonopan. I was such a different person before this divorce. I can't believe this has destroyed me. Thank you for your support. Brett
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