Ever since I was half the age I am now, I have had sexual obsessions that drive me crazy, especially when I am having--ahem--alone time. Once in a while while I am having "alone time" an unpleasant thought will pop into my head, usually about an ex that I no longer have any feelings for. What distresses me is that I am in a wonderful relationship with the man I know I am going to marry, and once in a while when I have "alone time" a thought of an ex will pop into my mind and it disgusts me. It makes me feel guilty, as if I am emotionally cheating. I know that stopping in the middle of it and giving in to the fear of the obsession is the wrong thing to do, so I continue and try to just ignore the thought, but afterwards I feel guilty for continuing. I can't tell my boyfriend because he wouldn't understand--bless his heart. He's very supportive of my anxiety and knows that I have OCD, but this is something that I think is hard for someone without OCD to grasp. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else out there has had this particular obsession or something close to it. Maybe thoughts during solo time, during sex with your partner, etc., and how you coped with it. Thanks guys.
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