Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
I believe that I have OCD.
I haven't told anyone because I guess to everyone else, it's not that sereve or obvious. But it is to me.
Every day I have to go through the same exact motions. Whether it be getting ready to go to school or before I go to bed. Something as simple as laying out my uniform is so difficult for me. My sweather has to be picked up first and put on the left side of my bed. Then I have to get my blouse and my socks and put them on the right side (blouse on the bottom, socks on top). Then I have to get my shoes and put them at the top before putting my skirt in the middle.
I can't change anything in my life without having horrible thoughts. What if I die? What if my parents get a divorce? What if I fail a class?
My room must be arranged in a specific way. I cannot even change my pillow case without having a panic attack.
I do not want my life to be controlled by this. I want to be like all the other girls at my school. The ones who are bold, happy, and carefree. I don't want to be the girl who sits in the same spot every single day and knows that she can't use a different pencil without fear of failing.
I just want to live.
I need help. But I am terrified.
I haven't told anyone because I guess to everyone else, it's not that sereve or obvious. But it is to me.
Every day I have to go through the same exact motions. Whether it be getting ready to go to school or before I go to bed. Something as simple as laying out my uniform is so difficult for me. My sweather has to be picked up first and put on the left side of my bed. Then I have to get my blouse and my socks and put them on the right side (blouse on the bottom, socks on top). Then I have to get my shoes and put them at the top before putting my skirt in the middle.
I can't change anything in my life without having horrible thoughts. What if I die? What if my parents get a divorce? What if I fail a class?
My room must be arranged in a specific way. I cannot even change my pillow case without having a panic attack.
I do not want my life to be controlled by this. I want to be like all the other girls at my school. The ones who are bold, happy, and carefree. I don't want to be the girl who sits in the same spot every single day and knows that she can't use a different pencil without fear of failing.
I just want to live.
I need help. But I am terrified.
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I don't want to let anyone down but I don't want to be controlled by this.
Thanks for the advice though.
good luck and will keep u in my prayers