Hi. I am not new to Daily Strength, but I am to the Obesity Group. Age, and caregiving for my mom who went home to Jesus this last summer has had me in a personal grieving and recovering process for the last six months. I am going through "the Change" to put it daintily for any gentlemen who might be with us and whie I was hoping to drop the extra pounds and slim out, I have packed them on instead. My life for about a decade has been going through a number of trials and I am focusing on everything good I can while I begin this oddessy. I have struggled with obesity most of my adult life. I am married to a wonderful man, but we have no children. Yes, we wanted them. Our mindset is that all things are possible, so we do not close ourselves away from the possibility of family.
Back to the weight. I have lived in a number of different places and it seems everytime we moved (former Military) I gained a dress size. I have tried a number of diets; slimfast, yogurt, supplements, cutting out fried foods and sweets, cutting out the carbs and eating veggies and protein, and most recently I tried a diet that cut out all animal products, refined foods, perservatives, and sweeteners including substitutes. I did it for three weeks and my body cleaned out, I lost any body odor I had, and my body started making use of its own oils. The only thing I did not lose was the pounds, though I think they would have started falling off the fourth week if I kept going.
I discovered a few things on this diet. The animal products are responsible for the body odor. The sugar is responsible for the overall lack of healthy feeling and energy spikes and drops. Sincee I have no food allergies, I was in legume heaven with the nuts and seeds and all those peanuts. I must admit, I was getting tired of curry. I like to cook pacific basin, so a lot of my meals are flavored with east indian and asian spices and ingredients. I was just starting to get past the curry and soy when the diet ended. I am now trying to change the way I shop; going around the perimeter of the market and limiting my time in the center where all the processed foods sit. I am trying to make sure nothing is missed and I am not sure about approaching the ladies I know locally about support and accountability since weight is an emotional issue and I can drive away anyone who is not ready to take thsi step, so here I am; ready to be held accountable for weights, menues, eating journals, and exercise. I am also ready to support any and all of my fellow dieters with encouragement and advice if they ask.
My first confession is that food is a social thing for me. I love to connect at the table, even if it's only coffee or tea. I also eat compulsively if I'm upset. If I get bad news or I'm low, I will reach for my favorites; chocolate, sweets, cookies, or salty things like chips and kettle corn. A few years ago I gave up chocolate with the exception of Christmas and Easter. I also traded caffeine for fruit juice and chicory, and sodas for the unsweetened sparkling waters spritzers. I also teetotal; nothing stronger than sparking grapejuice or a few alcohol removed wines on special occassions. Sorry this is long; aside from church and bible study, I don't get out much. I am used to being in the house with mom. Since she's gone home, I am trying to ease back into life.
So it's Easteer Saturday and we are having a heat wave. Yesterday I went out and bought a skirt and a matching top.I haven't worn a skirt since my mid forties as I have horrid veins on my legs. This skirt comes down to my nid calf so covers up most things.I love it because it's so cool to wear and of course it's very nice pattern wise.Been over the beach for a coffee and a crossaint and a sit in...
so today is a religious holday, Good Friday. But all the shops are open as usual. Our shop isn't even closing early.I usually work on a Friday so I have to go in today.Some people can sight religious grounds and not work but not me, I am not a church goer now.I am expecting us to be really busy, so I'll be running around and burning calories.I didn't do so well yesterday with food, so will try...