Well I made a decision this thanksgiving that I would not allow any negative dramatic bs to enter into this thanksgiving. Last year my ex fiance was cheating on me and I was pregnant. My parents (father and stepmother) spent it hosting the second annual Sarah is fat and going to die marathon intervention and counting every single bite of food I ate or making faces if I looked to long at the potatoes or god forbid added butter to my roll. This thanksgiving my children and I ate thanksgiving together granted I had to tell a whopper of a lie to the parents to get them to stop calling me. I told them I was working in Salem. My goals this week are to not have to lie to them again but tell them the truth that they are abusive and I can do with out their sort of love and Christmas dinner is out of the question. I wonder if I can survive that. They are an interesting pair. Both of them have weight issues themselves and are cultists to the weight watcher fad (I am not talking about WEIGHT watchers the program) But to the concept of watching weight and praying for quick fix or starving themselves. They both have been through multiple fad diets from slim fast to pills to starving themselves and abusing the concept of the program weight watchers. Ok enough negativity on to the point of the post Dinner and what we were thankful for

Dinner went well we had for a change chicken and oven baked sweet potato fries and steamed fresh green beans and fresh broccoli and corn bread stuffing. My eldest son helped me cook. (he is going to be an iron chef someday and you know what I believe him)

It was healthy and tasty and for desert we are going to have servings of vanilla ice cream with fried banana and carmel sauce (ok that part isn't healthy but hey its thanksgiving and diet doesn't mean depriving one self of good things but moderating them)

We were thankful that my depression caused from last year mess with my ex was under control (thank god for zoloft and massive doses of counciling and two awesome supportive kids)

We were thankful that my new son is healthy happy strong beautiful smart amazingly funny and with us now. (even though his father isn't in the picture we got the best part of him with us now)

We were thankful to each other for sticking together through the bad times and laughing through the good. (lordy it has to get better we could not go much further down then last year)

God Bless each one of you and please know that no matter what. you are all something to be thankful for.

Love to all.


Sarah