The past couple of days that I have had off have been very non productive. I have been just staying home & sleeping the time away. In fact I feel tired all of the time. I have to get myself out of this slump. There are errands that need to get done & I have to start my exercise program eventually. Anyway, the new year has not kicked off me just yet. I still have all the stress & sadness & emptiness that filled up most of 2007. What I don't have is all those empty calories that became my dearest companions & feed the pain away. Today I felt ravenous.. like a bottomless pit that needed to be filled with unhealthy junk food. Instead I drank more water, ate a large salad & lots of steamed vegetables in addition to my meals. Unfortunately as I sit here & type this I still feel hungry. The hunger never goes away. The only way that I have been able to stop the hunger is by sleeping. That is definitely not a solution. I am one phone call away from my chinese fix. I won't call because I am getting weighed tomorrow but the urge is with me. My mouth waters at the thought of bbq ribs & egg rolls & fried rice. What is wrong with me? How can I ever lose weight when my head is full of bad wiring? I need to get out of this slump...
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