For me the reason I put on so much weight is to hide and keep people at at a distance. I have a severe trust issue. I have met people in real life and I can't help but wonder what they really are like. Are they real or are they fake behind a mask.. Funny, I tried to protect myself and I hurt myself in the process. All the physical ailments that come along with the weight. All the people staring at me when I have to ride the cart at Wal-mart. My husband will not even stay with me when we are there. He always darts here and there. Sometimes I just don't know where he went. But, he always comes back before it is time to leave. Funny but it still hurts.
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