I ALWAYS SIT AND WONDER IF ANYONE REALLY UNDERSTANDS HOW I FEEL.I NO PEOPLE ON HERE DO UNDERSTAND ,BUT I MEAN FRIENDS, FAMILY AND LOVED ONES ,I BET MOST ARE LIKE ME. WE HAVE A WHOLE CUPBOARD FULL OF MASK'S WE PUT ON EACH DAY WHEN WE ARE AROUND THEM.THE BIG SMILES THE LAUGHING ,THE JOKES,THE WAN'TING TO BE NICE.. WHEN THEY SAY NICE THINGS. I NORMALLY THINK IT'S COZ THEY WANNA MAKE ME FEEL GOOD ,I GIVE THE IMPRESSION THAT IT DID ,BUT INSIDE IT DON'T HELP...I WANT PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I CARRY EACH DAY, FEELING THE WAY I DO.NOT SURE THIS IS COMMING OUT CORRECTLY I HOPE YOU WILL ALL UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY.I JUST WANT THE PAIN AND SELF LOATHING TO GO AWAY..
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