It sounds like you're not appretiated enough but that you are all the same or else you wouldn't bother with the pretences. I tend to smile and be fake when I want to spare the feelings of those around me who, I'm sure, care for me but don't really know me -what goes on inside.

You would be missed.

People just take us for granted.

I think I understand. I've thought about whether or not anyone would really be affected if I died. The answer is YES. I've thought about how fake I am at times, putting on a smile and acting like I really find something amazing when in honesty I could care less. I don't feel worthless because of it. I feel like I'm helping out someone else - making them feel better. OK so I end up feeling like crap as a result of my fakeness. It's important to be true to your feelings when you're really feeling badly. You have every right to have those moments just like everybody else. People would absolutely be affected if you were all of a sudden ripped from this world. Definitely.

I can look at the photo of you and that precious little girl and know right away that you would indeed be missed. God put you here for a reason, friend. You are not worthless, not at all. In fact, you are very young and have a lot of life and living ahead of you. If you are not happy with the way your life is going, you have the power to change it. One day at a time, one step at a time. Let us know how it's going, will you? God bless!

I ditto what zigzag said. You are unique and there is not another you out there anywhere. Therefore you are one of a kind and you have a special purpose for being here. Don't let anything or anyone, even yourself stop you from finding your purpose. In fact take down the brave face and put on your real one. Let everyone get to know the real you, the specail you.

The problem is that I do that, and no one wants anything to do with me! So sometimes I feel like I have to be fake too... AND I KNOW I am underapreciated and pretty damn sick of it!

Thank you all for your repies. I hit rock bottom last night but honestly it was a moment of weakness. I really do like who I am. I enjoy pleasing people wherever possible. I just miss pleasing myself.

It's the weight I am sick with. This body holds the most wonderful man in the world back and the mind of that man is not strong enough to take over.
Yet.

Many thanks

PS The precious little girl is my Godson Ramone.
Be well my friends.

Hi, I just wanted to say hello. Nice to meet you. You are in the right place if you need encouragement!!! You can loose the weight and if you need an ear I am here. Hugs Denise

Hey Kev: So glad to hear you're feeling better today. Feel free to message me if you ever need to chat. Take care.

I can understand your feeling of worthlessness and how you wonder if you will be missed. I have been there. You are not worthless, and you will be missed.

I am glad that you are feeling better today. I hope that you will continue to look for support when you are feeling like you did last night. It is amazing how much we can help each other even when we are the ones feeling down.

I've often wondered that same thing through my life, wondered if anyone would miss me if i stopped living. the answer to that for any human being is YES!!! i too lived with this facad for so many years that i forgot who i really was. for me it was a mask of i'm depressed and unable to go out and ...fill in the blank.... I literally stopped living, i was a 28 yr old geriatric. as time goes by and i stop trying to fake whatever and stop worrying about how i look doing what ever i am doing, cause face it we all look silly sometimes no matter what, i learned to enjoy life again and who i really am is slowing reminding me to leave the mask off. i had a lot of help tho, between God and meds i've come a very long way, i'd suggest looking into meds for depression if you havn't allready and other than that know you are special and important even if it's hard to see right now.

I, too, wonder if anyone would miss me if I was gone. I wonder if anyone would notice.
Since I became so fat, I seem to be invisible. I feel completely worthless.

Hey babe. What a beautiful baby. I've always wanted a baby (if I have one) that looks exactly like yours! Darling! I just want you to know how helpless we've all felt, and maybe even some of us feel it at this exact moment. You are surrounded by people who get it. Who have been where you are, who are going to be where you are. I personally need to hear your story. I need to hear how you get through it. I want to hear what it's like on the other side. Be my inspiration.

xo, Jen

Where would I begin honey? Not to long ago I expressed my feelings to a friend whom I thought (to my knowledge) returned said feelings. But it turn out only enough to allow me to make a complete Arse of myself. Since then it has been a day to day struggle to stay in the same group of friends. When I meet new people now its much harder than it was before. All the confidence i had to store up over months of worry was blown away by one sentence. "I like u, As a friend".
"Yipeee for me" I said. And now it will require something or someone pretty special for me to go there again.
Trouble is I cant really determine proper feelings of friendship from the confusion i felt for months. Absolute nightmare.