25 years old 500 pounds. Ive joined this community because I hit a low and knew I needed a place I could be completely honest with how low Ive gotten. I find myself hiding it a lot. Too ashamed to be totally real about every facet of my problem. I dont like to complain. I dont like to admit I am not doing well. I dont like people to see the cracks. Unfortunately I do it well enough that no one really has a clue how bad its gotten. My mother is probably the only one who really sees it and she just doesnt want to believe her baby can be that sick. I knew I had to tell someone outside the situation who would see it for what it is. Ive withdrawn from almost everyone else, or driven them off. I dont know what to do, or where to go, or what to believe about it all.
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