Have finally reached rock bottom (I hope!). Pressure built up so much at work on Wed,&I slept so badly that night(which was also my birthday!!),that I went in on Thurs afternoon, and told my boss everything.He was very sympathetic, but I've not been able to go in since,and I'm now on a stage 2 positive(!)formal absence policy (don't ask!).He says it's nothing to worry about,but I feel like I've lost control.Here's my question though:- I had my one&only appt at the sleep clinic in July,and was told,very patronisingly,that sleep paralysis won't kill me(which I've figured after over 20 years of it!!),that they don't think I'm making it up(!!!!),it is a variant of normal, and though the hallucinations are not common,they are heard of. We then briefly discussed depression because the doctor thinks I am (I did cry a bit at the beginning,as was stressed,and had been kept waiting near on an hour!!!!),and I mentioned N at the end because he hadn't, but he didn't think that was a factor as I don't fall asleep driving, or in conversation, or while reading (though I lose concentration during the last 2).I don't know what to do - do I just accept this? Am happy to if there's no chance of it,but why am I often so tired,&what do I say then in my occupational health meeting?I didn't tell my boss that I suspected N because of the above,but maybe I should.In the meantime,my family&friends are very worried about me,another thing I didn't want to happen.I know I can ask for a 2nd opinion at an approved sleep clinic,but am I just wasting everybody's time?Sorry for the length&all the exclamation marks.
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