I have had to go on sick from work as i can't cope with the constant daily battle of being in trouble because adjustments have not been made previously to enable me to do my job properly. I make silly mistakes because of concentration lapses and pressure of strict time targets, and i've had a few days off because i've been so tired in mornings i couldn't drive to work and would have been no good to work even if i had gone in (6 days in total but 4 separate occasions) so have to face capability/disciplinary procedures. Every time i'm called to have a meeting i'm faced with having to explain (and try to defend) my narc to yet another person within the company and this is getting so embarrassing. I go on holiday every couple months to try to recover from stress but when i come back i'm faced with such a barrage of problems i might as well have not been away to try and recover. Although i've had sleep paralysis and hallucinations in the past they've got so terrifying in the past week i don't even want to go to sleep now for fear of them. I'm so exhausted, but just don't know how i can deal with work.
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