Soneone please bring the cake! Ok, I know what depression feels like and I have it. For several reasons I think. I hate my job (way too much stress) and I applied for another job. I have been putting in for other jobs and I always get an interview but never the job. I keep thinking "what is wrong with me??" I just applied for a job and got an interview...it went well I thought. But alas, I did not get the job. I know the girl that got the job and I am WAY more qualified. I don't get it??? SO, I feel depressed about that. I feel depressed about everything in life. I won't even go to work. I just want to curl up in my bed and not move. I feel like I could cry at the drop of a hat. And I am not one that cries very often at all. I think it has been at least a year since I last cried. I hate the way I look. I hate not feeling good all the time and doctors treating me like I am some mental case because I am female. Knowing good and well if I was a man complaining off all this crap they would immediately start running tests and find out what's going on. I am rambling...sorry. I have the flu too, maybe this is why I feel so depressed. I keep having these thoughts come into my head about ending it all. NO I would never atually do it because I am somewhat rational, but it's just thoughts.....rambling again....sorry. Does anyone else go through these "slumps"?
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