I've been awake all night. I figured after being outside and mowing that I would be plenty tired enough but the meds brought no sleep tonight and it couldn't be on a worse night because I have to drive about an hour one way to a Dr. tomorrow and I'll be a zombie. I just hope that I make it there and back. I hate having to drive that far anyway. It's really hard on me. I recently went to th Dr. and told her that the ambien and clonazepam weren't working so sh changed it to remron and clonazepam if I needed it. I'm not sleeping soundly. Not deep enough. I tried trazadone and it worked but made me a zombie all the next day. I can't deal with that. How many things are there to put you to sleep. I've been through the relaxation exercises I learned years ago and they are no help. I've always read myself to sleep. I get comfy with in my bed with my CPAP and read until I nearly drop the book(which I did tonight) and reach up and shut off the light and that's usually it for me. I'll probably oversleep tomorrow night and be a zombie all day Tuesday. I watch babies sleep as they are wagged around in their carriers and wish it could be me. I never sleep deep enough to really dream and remember it. Haven't for years. The last time I had a dream was when I was on the nicotine patches over 40 y o. It really sucks when you can't sleep and then you hurt all the more.
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