Since I was diagnosed with MS I have stopped running, have issues with incontinence, have sexual dysfunction from time to time, using leg braces to walk in the house and a wheelchair out side of the house, gained almost 50 lbs (11 years), been diagnosed with GERD and Asthma, had two major surgeries, aged 11 years...hitting my 50th birthday this year. For the past two years I have not worked and I have been on and off solu medrol about every other month due to MS excerbations. Often I feel like I am not worth anything to my husband as a wife and that my children now see me as the child versus the parent. They all want to take care of me and to tell me how to live my life. I have paranoid thoughts off and on a lot that my husband is going to leave me and move on to someone else, and there has never been or is there a reason for me too feel this way. I am taking medications to help me with this and seeing a therapist weekly. I just can't seem to change my thinking once it is triggered by something like I don't know where my husband is for a hour. Maybe he said that he would be home around noon and now it is 1 pm...there goes my mind. It is so miserable. I am better now, because of the drugs. I often wonder if it is related to MS and the fact that most of my leisons are surrounding my brain stem which is the region for hormone function. Hormones control our daily emotions. My question is if any of you have had these thoughts or concerns about your life and then what has helped you without the drugs. I am really laying myself out here and hope you all understand that I am not nuts but sometimes I feel as though I am becoming nuts. I need your help. Thank you in advance for any help you can give me. Hugs coming your way...Carol
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