My anxiety is getting the best of me like always. I wish I could kiss anxiety good bye. It is taking everything out of me.I am getting that cisternogram tomorrow. I keep having visions of not walking out of the hospital tomorrow. I keep having a feeling they are gunna hurt me more and I wont walk again. They are gunna be putting that needle in the area where that disc is really bad in my spine. Or they are not able to get in there cause of my bad discs in that area and after being put through hell I get sent home. :( I would like to just get this over with. Please pray for me. I would like to not be a basket case tomorrow. I usually totally have a nervous breakdown. I feel sorry for those nurses tomorrow. They have thier work cut out for them. So if somthing happens tomorrow it was nice to know u all. But I feel so ready to go so it would not be a bad thing. I am so tired or hurting........God bless.
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