So tonight driving home I just got really pissed off...I was thinking about how my MS specialist said he's leaning more on the side of it not being MS...well, what about all the weird symptoms I've been having?!?! Like, the dizzyness and my eye problems? or not finding the right words or messing up what I want to say all the time? or the pain I'm in constantly and the tiredness...the list goes on and on...I've been working at my job for a week or so now and I know the kids names, I've known them since the second day, most of them since the first day(depending on how much I yelled at them lol) but ever since then i can be looking at a kid in the face, know the kids name in my head and say a completely different name like 5 times until i realize i said the wrong name...it's all just too coincidental to me...ok i'm done venting...i go for another mri in a couple of months to see if anything has changed. I am almost hoping it has just so that I have some sort of verification of my problems! b/c if it's not MS, what the hell is wrong with me?!?!? i'm only 23, i should not be having this many problems! my body shouldn't be falling apart already!
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