I've always had a weight problem and I've done it all, all the diets and exercise programs, I've succeeded, failed, succeeded, failed. Last June I decided to try again. I succeeded and lost 36 pounds by watching my diet and exercising. Then the symptoms began and I was diagnosed with MS. I lost all interest in my physical appearance. I was feeling so wonderful, felt beautiful and healthy and then I had to take steroids and my appetite soared through the roof. It didn't take long to put back 25 of the pounds I took off. I'm so disgusted in myself. It was so nice to fit into jeans and have a wide variety of nice clothes to wear and now I'm back to squirming into my jeans and large t-shirts. I'm so angry with myself and embarrased. Everyday I wake up and say, I'm gonna do it today, start being good and I just fail. It was hard work and being 50 it isn't easy losing it and all that hard work went right down the drain and I'm so mad at myself. I know I can do it, I just can't get started again. And I want to...I just can't. My doctor said to exercise. I have no pools around to swim. I have the equipment and the dvd's but just don't do it. My husband who loves me no matter what said that I just gave up and I guess I did. I'm so sad about this. Thanks for listening. Just wanted to vent.
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