I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. ME AND MY HUSBAND FIGHT ALMOST ALL THE TIME NOW. I KNOW THAT MY PERSONALITY AND ATTITUDE HAVE CHANGED AS WELL AS ANYONE WITH MS. MY HUSBAND WILL NOT LISTEN NOR TRY AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. ALL HE SEEMS TO THINK IS THAT I CAN CONTROL MY ANGER AND ATTITUDE AND I TRY TO FOR THE MOST PART. I COULD BE ALOT WORSE. I KNOW I NEED TO GET ON SOME KIND OF ANTI-DEPRESSANT BUT I CANT RIGHT NOWW CAUSE I AM PREGNANT. I AM JUST SO TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I AM JUST A CRAZY BITCH. I AM ALWAYS SUPPOSED TO LISTEN TO HIS FRUSTRATIONS AND GIVE ADVICE BUT WHAT ABOUT ME. I GUESS THAT I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE ANGRY OR PISSED AT LIFE!! I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING WITH HIM AND NOTHING WORKS. I AM TIRED OF FEELING ALONE AND SCARED ALL THE TIME. EVER SINCE I WAS DX HE HAS ALWAYS MADE COMMENTS ABOUT HOW HE DONT KNOW IF HE CAN HANDLE IT. OR HE JUST SAYS THAT MY DISEASE IS MAKING HIM CRAZY. MOST DAYS I REALLY HATE HIM FOR IT. I DONT WANT TO LOOSE HIM, BUT I ALSO DONT WANNA LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 18 YEARS NOW. DONT KNOW HOW TO FIX THINGS. PLEASE HELP!!!
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