Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Support Group
This community is a place where members can discuss current events and weigh in on what's going on in the world.
I am totally shutting down and unable to function at times. Nov. 12 will be 13 yrs, together since 17 and diagnosed two months before wedding. He was ok with it but the ms through the years with the medications behavioral problems until I got aware and reevaluated them. He is an attorney and also drinks alot and puts me down and we were at each others last nerve. I left when he lost his job due to drinking, although he will not admit to it. I have received ssd since 2007. He always took great care of me when it came to my MS. Now I am at my parents house trying to get an apartment and no one understands me nor do I seem to be wanted by anyone. The only thing I am holding on to is my child, who is a four legged canine american, she is my world. I am 34 and really do not see a bright future. I am a square peg trying to fit in, but I don't. I am so scared, panicy, depressed, unsure, alone, and just here. I feel very hopeless and I am so young why me. Does anyone else feel this? No one will love me again with me having MS....life is just scary. Just here today.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
hang in there.divorce is always a bad time even for the healthy.but it does get better
There is a website out there called mspals.com I think. You can find friends there that also have MS... just an idea
The worst thing you can do is to stop loving yourself. If you don't love yourself, you can't love another person. You need to know deep in your heart that you have much to offer and then give it away to others. There is no point in having so much to offer and holding on to it for fear of getting hurt.
My history has a roller coaster ride with many times falling off the darn thing altogether. I had no parents and blah blah blah... I'm sure that there are others here whose stories would make us cry.
Now I can only pray that you don't give up on yourself. We love you. You love you as well.
In regards to your present situation, let go. But by letting go, you are perhaps doing something exciting for yourself. Somewhere out there God made someone just for you, who will love all the good and bad in you. Perhaps that someone will only be the person looking back at you in the mirror. But that is a wonderful person too.
I hope that someday you will trust in the love that is out here just begging to be taken and then nurtured only to be sent out again. Because in my humble opinion, the greatest love you can have, is the love you give away.
Much love
MaggieO