I found out that I have ms about 2 years ago. Come july I hopefully will be sober for 2 years. I know now If I wouldn't have gotten sober NO WAY would I deal with ms so n a way greatful for soberity. On the other hand I'm scared of the meds, pain meds, fatigue meds, anything habit forming. I'm always checking my motives and all my docs know. What about the future? Will I be able to stay honest with self? When I was using this was a dream come true, all I have to do is tell my doc something is wrong and BAM whatever I want. On the other hand, when do you say enough is enough and take what your body needs. I'm scared for I don't know where the line is or what happens if I do have to cross it. I have a wondeful support group for soberity and they all know how I feel and keep me in check. But really known of them understand MS [like I do?] I've tried support groups but its hard to see people that have had ms for awhile, I'm sorry if people don't understand that or think I'm being selfish. SO thats why I love daily strength can talk to people and get some wonderful advice and lots of hope, This is my way in to understanding ms and not feeling sorry for us that r living with it. To some this might be me rambling, but I hope someone can relate?
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