I know exactly how you feel!

Thanks! I like your user name!

i get angry all the time. i get mad at people who give me that "poor you" look when they find out. i get mad at my family when they tell me to slow down. then i get mad when they act like totally nothing is wrong with me. right now i am mad at the doctor who runs the blood donation at the hospital that i work at. i can't give blood!! i'm sure there is a good reason, but i only have ms. it's not contagious. most of all i get mad at myself. i know it all boils down to being mad at this monster. but i am just mad.

Thanks Diedre. It helps me to not feel so alone to hear other people angry at the same monster.

Dierdre, you hit the nail on the head w/ 'I'm mad if they feel sorry for me' and 'I'm mad if they act like there's nothing going on'...we must be such a joy to live with ; ) At the same time, so far, I haven't had any big symptoms since my dx, so, other than taking the shots, I'm feeling like the 'old' (pre dx) me. I think the next episode will throw me a curve, but do I need to do something now to be more ready for it??? Diane

I am not sure how long everyone has had MS and I do not want to waste my spoons to review, but here it is.

I have had MS for 20 years. When ANYONE not just MS people have a life changing monster, it requires a grieving process. Grieve over the life you HAD. REALIZE and ACCEPT that a NEW life is ahead of you. Just because you can no longer perform things that you use to, does not mean your life is finished. Approach this monster as a renewal and blessing. It is in the approach of life long acceptance where you will find peace.

Get angry, have a pillow fight with a friend, scream, cry, then get through it. It can be done.

I was a Senior Financial Analyst for a large insurance company in Philadelphia. I was highly successful and respected. In 1996 I was earning $86,000. In 1997 I had a second dramatic attack which left me permanently disabled and completely unemployable. Do I miss the money. Hell yeah! I had to file bankruptcy and am on SS and disability. Big change for me.

I REFUSE to let anyone and especially an ailment determine my mood. It is in YOUR power to put that happy face to the world. Good things will be returned to you.

Ever hear "you get what you give". WELL..........

Best of luck and love to everyone

Diane, i know what you are saying and i think for the most part we all do get ticked and get over it. but there are those times when we just get mad. get mad at having to be in this situation. i know i do, i get mad and start on that "why me?" trip. then i think that i could be worst and i have been better. in the end i apprieciate what i have now and stop mourning what i had. but with out those occational bouts of rage and anger i think it would just sit inside me and eat me up. i don't mean to say that i live in my mad. i don't. i still work almost full time, volunteer at my kids school, and organize parties for friends when i can. but sometimes i have to fall hard into that anger, then i can slide into that acceptance again.

Hi, I wrote a post and I have the opposite, I think because I was so active and did everything for everyone and now I do nothing so they think it is just a phase I am going through. And then gaining weight. They just think I am letting myself go. Yeah, MS is letting myself go. Take care and God Bless, Margaret.