Reading about your little experience with animals reminds me of mine (sadie)also very connected to cuddly animals and soft touches. But thinking back to the last few times I know she's been around I'm disturbed. no one lets her play with the kids, they are getting too old, but she is wanting what I want to call daddy time. That big safe person that just holds his little girl and comforts her without words (NO, my dad was not exactly like that, but he was not my abuser and his touch has always felt safe). I know for a fact that my husband has taken advantage of the situation with her. In a sick way it's like just a repeat of the past. I thought about it today when he commented that he doesn't have to stay faithful to one person, because I offer so much variety. It put a pit in my stomach as to if this relationship is even remotly healthy.
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