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Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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deleted_user 01/19/2009

so theres this TV show that comes on monday nights on ABC. (secret life of the american teenager)
the acting is crappy and soap-opera-esque,
but the story line is pretty interesting. (pregnant teen trying to decide wether or not to keep the baby)

so the father of the baby is this foster kid who has been passed around foster houses since he
was like 8.

in this episode, you find out the dude was sexualy abused by his bio dad, (which is why hes in foster care)

why does that make me so aroused? why why why?
i hate myself for it. its not normal. its sick and wrong and weird and gross and totally not fair. i shouldnt be feeling that way about a situation thats COMPLETELY WRONG AND DISGUSTING.

its gross.
its disgusting and dirty.
why am i so disgusting?

deleted_user 01/19/2009

I am not really sure but I can say that often times arousal that seems weird and unnatural to us is often tied to abuse we experienced ourselves....somehow related...I am no expert though so I could be completely wrong about this...just wanted to respond anyways.
earthlake

deleted_user 01/19/2009

I agree with earthlake. When we are abused as children the lines between right and wrong get blurred...The abuse interferes with everything from our brain development, to our ability to express ourselves, and to our sexuality.
This is not your fault. It is the fault of your abusers, and the people who were supposed to take care of you and provide good examples of healthy sexuality and relationships.
You are not damaged or abnormal for having these feelings, they are afterall, just feelings. Sadly, they are a product of your abuse. If you have a T, we suggest talking to her/him about this.
You are very right in your post when you say that it is totally not fair. You should never have been put in a position like this to begin with, but we believe, that your ability to be honest about this and reflect upon it means that you are NOT disgusting, gross or dirty. Just the opposite, you are brave and strong, and a survivor.
Hang in there...

e4now 01/19/2009

u are not alone...i too get aroused from situations where most people wouldnt...thank you for sharing.....its me e

deleted_user 01/19/2009

I agree with everyone here.

deleted_user 01/20/2009

I agree with all that is said also. YOU are NOT disgusting. What has been perpetrated upon you was disgusting. The results of that are NOT your fault. You need love and support and friendship and understanding and I believe that many of us here will stand and do that for you. I will, for one.
Karen

Desolit 01/20/2009

arosal happens in the stangest palces in our mind,its sometimes things are good,are we are ashamed or farid,its the body the makes us feel that way and the mind says no, palces ijn our mind,there is no sick and wrong and weird and gross,these are just words,in the place you are we understand,but we see the abusers taking over us again and again,noone in this world is "normal" we do not knoew what it means,nothing is wrong or right as long as we do not hurt others,listening to it and acceptence sometimes makes it go away,please be safe

deleted_user 01/20/2009

Why, because there were some pretty sick people out there that hurt us.

"its gross.
its disgusting and dirty.
why am i so disgusting?"

Yes it was gross and disgusting but that was about them not you. Silver
BTW thingsw carried, you Rock.

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