Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
so theres this TV show that comes on monday nights on ABC. (secret life of the american teenager)
the acting is crappy and soap-opera-esque,
but the story line is pretty interesting. (pregnant teen trying to decide wether or not to keep the baby)
so the father of the baby is this foster kid who has been passed around foster houses since he
was like 8.
in this episode, you find out the dude was sexualy abused by his bio dad, (which is why hes in foster care)
why does that make me so aroused? why why why?
i hate myself for it. its not normal. its sick and wrong and weird and gross and totally not fair. i shouldnt be feeling that way about a situation thats COMPLETELY WRONG AND DISGUSTING.
its gross.
its disgusting and dirty.
why am i so disgusting?
the acting is crappy and soap-opera-esque,
but the story line is pretty interesting. (pregnant teen trying to decide wether or not to keep the baby)
so the father of the baby is this foster kid who has been passed around foster houses since he
was like 8.
in this episode, you find out the dude was sexualy abused by his bio dad, (which is why hes in foster care)
why does that make me so aroused? why why why?
i hate myself for it. its not normal. its sick and wrong and weird and gross and totally not fair. i shouldnt be feeling that way about a situation thats COMPLETELY WRONG AND DISGUSTING.
its gross.
its disgusting and dirty.
why am i so disgusting?
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earthlake
This is not your fault. It is the fault of your abusers, and the people who were supposed to take care of you and provide good examples of healthy sexuality and relationships.
You are not damaged or abnormal for having these feelings, they are afterall, just feelings. Sadly, they are a product of your abuse. If you have a T, we suggest talking to her/him about this.
You are very right in your post when you say that it is totally not fair. You should never have been put in a position like this to begin with, but we believe, that your ability to be honest about this and reflect upon it means that you are NOT disgusting, gross or dirty. Just the opposite, you are brave and strong, and a survivor.
Hang in there...
Karen
"its gross.
its disgusting and dirty.
why am i so disgusting?"
Yes it was gross and disgusting but that was about them not you. Silver
BTW thingsw carried, you Rock.