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uncovering trauma may trigger

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Hello Everyone,

some of you have read my current situation, basically I am uncovering a big trauma from my childhood that Strong has held all this time.

Through my dreams, I have seen that 4-5 older teen boys attacked me and told me it was just a game and that I was not hurt. My dream shows these boys shooting me in the back with paintball guns, so I am not sure yet exactly what that represents, but I know what Freud would say.

I do not feel anything about it yet, but Strong told me she'd show me what happened before I was able to feel the feelings. I have intellectualized this event, but it's still a step forward.

I am grateful that I am finally finding out why I have had a wasteland of a life filled with drugs, booze, violence, abuse, and tremendous suffering.

Thanks to everyone here for their support-everyone is great, and without you guys, I would not have found my therapist and would not be where I am now in my healing.

Thanks!!
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WE all recover our stuff differently, but I always had knowledge before I had feelings. I wish I had figured that out. That my pieces came in just that, pieces. They had to be rounded up to show a whole picture.
I also wish I knew they were just packets of memories and all of them produced the same things to work on. Shame, guilt, horror and shock. So many other things.
My constantly talking to my me's, I learned they all needed to be loved, told it was not their fault and helped to feel secure.
I just wish I could do everyones memories for them. I can't. I can just hang in there with you guys.
Jen, the cool thing is now your life doesn't have to stay a wasteland. You are doing great work. We all know it isn't easy. My hat is off to you. Silver
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you are so brave. Wow. We are really sorry this happened to you. No little girl should have that happen to her. It makes us sad to hear. But we are glad you are finding out.
Desolit
Desolit
we read somewhere where memories are flat,until after 30 seconds of bringing it back,the emotions come,how we felt and everting becomes revenge or pain or hate,dreams are scary,so many are so disturbing,we have to say its not real shake your head,you are hereyou are strong,we call it going to the other side
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Desolit, thanks for letting me know it is you that says the other side. It is a very important concept to being able to place distance between the past and the present when you are recovering memories.
I have a visualization now for the other side. I see a river between me and the memories. There is a bridge that can disappear after I have recovered something. This has allowed me to put distance between me and what I am working on and it helps me to not be overwhelmed. Silver
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