
Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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Thanks SueBee, been reading other posts today and saw one about people not believing DID exists, even those who have it. You are so right, I still have difficulty with the idea, I understand it very well, its etiology and how it manifests as well. And while I can see how others can have it I find it very difficult to think that I do. Ive worked in mental health as a volunteer and now a paraprofessional for several years and have educated myself on many illnesses and the only one I have difficulty accepting as a real illness is DID, hmm. Warning flag there, dont you think? My denial is not solid however, it ebbs and flows, and I am well aware that all of us prefer to deny those aspects of ourselves that we dislike but are quick to find and often condemn them in others. I dont condemn those who have DID but look very skeptically at therapists, and the more degrees they have the greater my skepticism who treat it.
Ive been dxd with it, way back in the mid-90s by an expert, which raises my skepticism, if youre a hammer you see nails everywhere. But there is no denying that I lose time, and do things I dont recall as well as screwing up my life in very amazing ways. I think some of it is self sabotage, but I cannot realistically explain it all away except to say I dissociate, humph.
Thanks for letting me wander around mentally here, there is no one to talk with about this in 3D I have a therapist but cant seem to drop my guard.
Ive been dxd with it, way back in the mid-90s by an expert, which raises my skepticism, if youre a hammer you see nails everywhere. But there is no denying that I lose time, and do things I dont recall as well as screwing up my life in very amazing ways. I think some of it is self sabotage, but I cannot realistically explain it all away except to say I dissociate, humph.
Thanks for letting me wander around mentally here, there is no one to talk with about this in 3D I have a therapist but cant seem to drop my guard.
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My advice is, don't reveal more than you are comfortable with, and only a little at a time....you always have a choice, and you never are obliged to stay with someone you don't trust or feel comfortable with, for whatever reason.
But to those who had to use it to survive horrible traumas, especially children,its severity differs widely with different people. It is a survival tool.
I find it sad to think that kind of ignorance still exists among some Doctors...especially the ones who honor and revere Freud, when he was obviously a deeply disturbed individual.
I'm sorry you and many others have also encountered such ignorance. It is the degree or severity of the dissociation that causes our lives to be impaired or hinders the ability to grow and function in a world that has already proven it cannot protect the innocent or helpless.
I have personally benefited from the integration process and when i de-fuse a trigger, sometimes the hallucinations both auditory and visual have dissipated that were associated with it. And lost time from my childhood has been remembered...on my own, not 'suggested memories', that some therapists have been accused of prompting. These are things that came back of their own volition after I put the pieces together in other areas of my life.
I hope you can find the help that you need and not be deterred by the skepticism that seems to flourish about this subject. I wish you peace and to find someone you can trust to take you a little further on your journey.
When the first fragmented memories surfaced I was puzzled, I remember it vividly. I was in the therapists office, I trusted him implicitly, but found what I was experiencing almost impossible to describe. I had my eyes closed, or think I did, and I saw snippets of what appeared to be photographs. It looked as if someone had taken a photo album and chopped the photos into slivers then mixed them all together. Over the next few weeks pieces would come into focus but made no sense in and of themselves. A few however explained memories that I had but could not explain. For example, I had always remembered walking down a hallway with my father. I could see what I was wearing, a brilliant red coat with bright brass buttons. We arrived at a door, he knocked and the memory ended there. I could never figure out why Id remember such an innocuous thing so vividly, I couldnt have been more than five at the time of the memory. The snippets provided a catalyst and I remembered some of what happened behind that door. It was a long process, Id remember other pictures, and eventually they formed a story that I finally told the therapist. He was shocked to say the least and did question some of it because it made no sense, he asked how it was possible since there werent any physical scars uh, how he thought he knew that I dont know. I mean he never saw me naked and didnt have access to any medical records. I felt at the time he wasnt questioning me I cant explain it sorry but I didnt take offense. I knew he was having difficulty picturing some of what I told him, I suspect I wasnt able to explain things well. I know I dissociated, or at least depersonalized some of it because I remember thinking that I was watching someone else from a corner up against the ceiling. I told him that as well and I know he understood I did not mean I was physically transported to the ceiling, I just felt uninvolved in what was happening.
Um, not sure what the point was to all this, sorry. I am debating posting it but am going to do it anyway because its written and maybe someone will benefit or have some insight and help both me and themselves. Thanks for reading what looking like its going to be a very long post.
cherie
I read your profile and see we live in the same state so Im wondering if were anywhere near one another? Im on the Treasure Coast about midway between West Palm and Otown. I havent found a therapist that quite fits but am involved in a therapeutic relationship thats a bit unconventional telephone sessions only but would like to find someone I could see face-to-face so if you know of any Id be happy to hear about them.
K, this could easily turn into another marathon post so Ill stop here, thanks again and its good to have met you.
Laura