I am so sick and tired of this DID, depression, anxiety, and everything else that goes along with it. I'm tired of not knowing what is happening in my own life, with my own body. My inside system which had been working well for a long time has shut down and isn't communicating, isn't being empathetic, isn't allowing co-consciousness, and everyone is depressed and complaining about it. I have much to be grateful for, I know this. My husband is working, the kids are all well, we are able to meet our bills, no savings or any cushion, but we are making it. I haven't been in the hospital since November, I think a record after last year. So why can't we be happy with this? I know the inside confusion is probably due to new memories. Eve has them, I know about them, but don't remember them and it has the others confused. She also stopped me from interviewing for a part time job that I really wanted, one that I was uniquely qualified for, that won't come around very often. This is turning into quite the ramble so I guess I'll stop. I'll take any hugs I can get, I feel like I could use them.
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