Our 'mother' person. The person that raised us, abused us, tortured us for our whole lives, and allowed others to torture us, can not stand what we have become. Can't stand the US factor. Can't stand that fact that we are so unstable. She wants now to have this happy friendly relationship with us like nothing ever happened. Yet everytime we get around her we disociate like crazy, and she hates it. What does she expect? She created this monster. That is what we feel like lately too. Some horrible monster. That is how she makes us feel. We are worth nothing. We are failing at everything we try. Everything is going wrong, and she hates what she created. We love ourselves, and that used to be enough, why do we still give a darn what she thinks?
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