I am soo confused and lonely right now and mad too. Just got done going through bills with my husband and it is always my fault. I hate having to do this with him. If the kids owe money or we have a couple extra it's always me who gets the blame. It makes me feel hurt and ashamed, because I can no longer work and am on disability I get a little bit of money but not near enough and with all the docotr bills it is just very hard. Somtimes I know someone else was there, because I loose track of time and awareness. I get scared alot wich brings on the anxiety big time. I wish sometimes I could just disappear, but then i am afraid of would be there the ince one?? the hurtful one, the one who wants to sleep with the angels, the children?? Who am I?????
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