well after barely surving the best part of may/june in hospital i managed a week at home till i went to see family in canada with my kids -hmm somehow seeing family after 8yrs no holiday more like a suicide mission although my kids now believe i am the only sane one in the family - well in hospital ex bf screwed with my head and finally decided to tell me he was seeing someone else - so chaos ensued the week i had to leave b4 canada and to get packed to go - he did all this shit while he was caring for my kids while i was in hospital so some major self harm b4 i flew out - was assured we could sort things out about the jointly owned home he had lived in with his kids which i helped him buy due to child safety issues where they were living with there mom - well bf moved out mysteriously while i was in canada - never passed my house keys on as requested and even removed furniture from my private residence while i was overseas for 5 wks trying to deal with my totally dysfunctional family (it was my moms 80th while we there and first time in about 20yrs all 7 of us siblings had been together - so as i tried to hold things together there i came home to a runner from the ex bf - whom in keeping with his ex wife whom slapped a protection order on him over financial matters threatened me on phone while in canada so have applied for protection order for self and his reputation proceeds him i guess - dont know when he will get served with summons for court but in mean time i have to let him on to jointly owned property tomorrow so hopefully he hasnt been served yet and i can act like things are normal (more like snafu) where do i find such horrid men - and ppl that fuck with your head because they think you are mentally impaired rather than having a medical condition - so little sleep but somehow holding things together - hope everyone has kept safe while ive been hither to thither - cant describe it any other way - but all my best to everyone on the board - cheers zen - must go to bed its 4:30 am here in oz and have to get up at 6 am - so no sleep again tonight as i avoid all the stress nightmares .... well enough babble for now just thought i would check in ....
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