Well...i dont think i have DID. I was told once i have depersonalization disorder. Basically, i not only have huge gaps in memory mostly from childhood but i also get this sensation that i am seperate from my body. Like I'm in my mind and my body is functioning on its own if that makes any sense. I can have a friend for years and suddenly stop talking to them and not feel anything. When i am intimate with someone i check out completely. I have this issue with knowing what ive said or done but its like im always watching someone else. Even if nothing bad happened i have a horrible time remembering specific details of any situation whether it was yesterday or 10 yrs ago. I have never ever told anyone all of this and i am so grateful to share it. When i read your posts or the ones in the sexual abuse group i get this panicky, shaky, want to cry feeling. I am basically a hermit. I HATE dealing with most people and i feel ridiculously stressed out when theres too much light or sound going on at once. WTF is wrong with me??!!
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