As you all know by now I have a hard time dealing with the DID idea. I know I have all the symptoms but still. Anyway here is the problem. My prayer minister (Sue) someitmes asks to speak to a particular alter or whomever holds a certain part of me. I don't know how to let the alter she is talking to have control. I know it has happeded in the past because she tells me she has talked to them before. I never know when I'm going to become an observer in my life. Has anyone figured out how to let an alter have the front out of their own choice? Or course even if I could figure out how to do this I know once I did it I would be bombarded with the guilt of being told I making it up! I saw a demonstration with a girl once who could call up her alters on command and a girl at my church was able to do if before she intergrated but I'm lost on the concept. Maybe I cant do it because I dont beleive there are any alters. Geez, Im making no sense here am I?
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