Funny, though, I was just weeping and missing her terribly today. Still, at nearyly 43 years old, I still NEED my Mother. Taken quite suddenly at the very young age of 58, I wasn't prepared! Are we ever? However, I was in denial. Not My Mother. My beautiful, wonderful, perfect Mother. A very rare disease by the name of Amyloidosis is what raped her of a wonderful future. My Mother was blessed with soooooo (too many, I thought) friends who loved her for the special person she was. She was at her job for 30 yrs......and again, one of a kind! Her company planted a very large tree in front of the highrise building she worked in. They were very special to her! Ohhhhhhh it took such a long time for me to not cry daily missing my mom. Two years went by with out listening to Christmas....just too sad. Now it has been 7 years. I still cry on occasion, I really need her and I believe if I keep talking to her she will hear. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis 2yrs. after my Mom died.....directly in the midst of an ugly divorce! Used all my inheritance from my mom to buy what we thought was going to be 'our dream home'......NOT QUITE. Finally, I figured out a leopard doesn't changes its spots if you know what I mean. Vindictively, ex'hubby stopped making our mtg. payments.....ya da ya da ya da! Now, 5yrs. later, it is just my 15 yr. old dtr. and 13 yr. old son. Two more on their own. Nobody should ever underestimate the power of a mother! Sorry for all who've lost theirs as well. For now, however, I will try to be the best Mom I can be and hope I'm around well into my 80's......That age sounds pretty good to me! I have a Grandmother who just turned 93! My Mother's Mom! And I have a great Aunt who is 96......Croak already will ya?!?!! I mean that in the most lighthearted/serious way!
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