I feel so terrible today. I think I am getting a terrible sinus cold. My head feels like it is going to explode when I bend over or hold my head up straight. I wish my mom were here because I know she would be here with me in a heart beat so that I could relax and not have to run the babies all over the house. Anytime I got sick she would come because she knew that noone else here was going to help me. My husband can make his own hours at work but he will run out of the house in a heart beat so as not to help me and his aunt who also lives here will sleep all day so that she doesn't have to help me. I have to take my 4 yr old to school shortly and my eyes are killing me from the pressure in my head. I feel like crying so bad because I don't have the only person I could ever depend on here. She knew that if I needed her I would call and she would drive an hour just to come help me out even if it was just for a few hours. I have noone now that will or can help me. I hate this! I hate that she is gone when I need her so bad. Its bad enough I am depressed and want to call her so bad now I am getting sick. I usually got two bad colds a year and I can feel it coming on now. I don't know what I will do because I know noone here will help me or even cares how bad I feel. Why do people not give a rats behind about someone who does so much for them? I feel like I am nothing more than a cook and a maid who doesn't get paid or time off either. I just want to go back to bed today!
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