Well, today it is three months. I can't believe it has been so long. I had a dream last night that we were cleaning out her house. I was working in the yard weeding. Next thing you know I am crying. Saying over and over that I want my mom - that she can't be gone. That's pretty much sums up how I feel. I don't even have to be awake to feel that way - I dream it too! It just sucks! I can't believe I will never see her again - for the rest of my life! It makes me sick. I have been feeling pretty strong. Doing the things my mom would want me to do. Taking care of what needs to be done. Going on with my life like she said to do- for her. But today I feel like shit! Hit me like a semi truck. I'd go back to bed if I could - but I can't. SHIT!
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