Tonight was my second grief therapy session. It started with her asking me if I could say to her anything good that had come out of my mums death. Imagine my shock...then anger (could have lifted a school bus, how dare she imply that my mum leaving was good in any way!) I wanted to jump out and slam the door! Instead I said angrily "NOTHING". She said something good must have come of it. I thought she was nuts, really, really nuts. I thought..are you dense? deaf maybe? Then she said, do you think she is still in pain and suffering? I said no. Do you think she is happy to be reunited with ones who passed before her? Begrudingly I said 'I suppose', then she said that now for sure I know that I have a guardian angel...I didn't answer. She said so much. For the first time and I mean first time since she passed did I even consider anything good about her passing. My poor mum suffered at the end. She died of pancreatic cancer and it was so horrible to watch. I am happy she is no longer in pain. I am glad she is with my brother in heaven and her best friend. I dreamed of her last night and she was with her best friend laughing and talking around the kitchen table over coffee and cigarrettes. She was so happy in my dream. I am happy she is happy. Ladies I have made one small step forward. Thanks for listening. Colleen
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