I think I am shutting down. I think of my mom constantly and miss her so terribly but I have gotten to where lately I refuse to talk about her. I just try to stay away from the subject all together. It has been six months today and all I can think of is of the turn of events of that whole day. I hate this and it is driving me crazy. I just want to go back to six months and one day ago and take her to the doctor and make her all better. I try to stay as busy as I can but I know with the kids getting ready to start school soon I will be going nuts. I'm sorry if I haven't been as active as usual lately I just think I am just turning more and more into myself and just have been shutting myself off from everyone lately. My family reunion is at the end of this month and my mom won't be there and I hate that. I don't even want to go.
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