It's all so hard to stomache. Since just before New Years' and learning my mom's death was medical negliegence has brought me back to times when mom first died. The visions, nausea, no sleep, sobbling tears. I went to help my dad tonight, get stuff for the lawyer. He knew I was coming and his cheating girlfriend was there. I had to go through all my mom's papers with the two of them plopped down on the couch. I held back everything, got what I thought I needed and left. I'm a mess now! I can't take this woman. How she came into my mom's home and took over my dad's vulnerable state just a 5 months after mom's death. I'm sick. I fear he will be with this woman but I can't stand to be in her company. I miss my old family gatherings of laughter and happiness that was in my mom's home, the home I grew up in. It's all gone now!!! She's taken over and I hurt and grieve for myself, my family, all the wrong-doing and the future dreams my mom had.
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