I am 27yrs old, I lost my mom May 25,2008 of Cervical Cancer. I got engaged about a month before we found out she was sick, i was really happy up until then, and obviousely did not start planning a wedding because she was dying. My fiance and I have since not had such a good relationship, I really felt like he could have done more for me,gone out of his way or thought of some way to comfort me and support me, but i never felt he did. I know he loves me but I don't think its enough. I am also quite jealous that it seems he has everything handed to him and has his parents to build him up or pat him on the back...I don't have that anymore and I'm sad. I miss her so much I cant stand it sometimes and I probably take it out on him. I don't mean to but its really hard to talk to him when he has no clue what its like. I also get the impression that he is sick of me grieving and I should be over it by now.
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