And I feel like I'm shredded meat. Saw my new thyroid doctor this AM (the old one who I loved had to leave for family reasons), and she was AWFUL. I told her - from a list I'd made so I wouldn't forget - everything that's happened in the last month, told her how my brother and I STILL will not be going to my mom & dad's town until the week of the 20th, and that I haven't been sleeping, and she asks me "are you feeling suicidal?" Um, NO, I'm just friggin' EXHAUSTED and feel like I'm barely hanging on!! I wanted to slap the hell out of her. Please say prayers for strength for me today - I'm working a contract job currently, so if I don't work (I was out Monday and Tuesday), I don't get paid, and I don't have any medical insurance right now. I will start with a grief support group on the 15th, but there's NOTHING here in my area until then. Hate to say it, but at least recovering addicts can always find a support group to go to any time, anywhere. I need your love and support today. Thank you.
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