(((bigtighthug)))I am so sorry your Mom passed away so very young. That must have been so traumatizing for you as a little girl. I guess it's easy for me to take for granted the years I did have with her. I can not imagine how tough it's been for you to have to figure out so much on your own. Everytime I see a Mom and daughter together doing Anyhing I get a pang in my heart.

I actually got married in my moms hospital room while she layed their on life support, very heavely sedated.
Her and I just started planning my wedding and then 2 months after we started planning she died.
Who would have thought that I would have been planning her funeral instead of us planning my wedding :(.
Needless to say, my anniversary last year was extremly hard. I couldnt be happy at all that I was married for one year because all I could think about was the setting and situation that I was married in.
I could have continued with my wedding plans but I just couldnt stand the fact that she wouldnt be there so I did it in the hospital room.
Atleast I know she was there and I held her hand the whole time as I said my vows.
Thats the most important thing to me, is that she was right next to me.

For the last eight months of my mother's life, every night I wished on a star for two things: 1. my parents would make it to their 50th wedding anniversary (which at that point was less than 2 years away) and 2, my mother would live long enough to see me get married. And when I got the news of her death, those were the first two thoughts that came to my head with the heaviest emotion placed on the fact that my mother would never see her only daughter get married. It's not that I'm close to it, but in her life the only time she ever saw me happy with a guy was when I was in high school (even though as a typical teenager, I did not get along with my mother at the time). She never got to see me get an engagement ring, and she'll never get to see me walk down the aisle. It's not that she ever pressured me to get married because she didn't, but as a girl you want your daddy to walk you down the aisle and your mother to be there in the front row watching you get married.

I never wanted a big wedding regardless -- just a small, intimate affair -- but to me, it almost seems pointless to make a deal out of it when and if the time comes. I know I will feel differently when someone does ask me to marry him, but until then, if my mother can't be there, it just won't be the same.

I am so sorry that you got married with your mother there, and that she wasn't there to see her grandchildren. My heart goes out to you.

she was there with you when you got married, she was there when you had you children,she will always be there with you, when you look at your children she is there.
amanda

Oh Mushi,

I feel the same way you do.

I echo Mushi and TopazBlueGirl's sentiments. In the time since my Mom passed away, I've had a few times where I'll go there and think, if the planets all aligned and I did happen to get married, my mom will never see me walk down the aisle, never meet my children, and they'll never know her, which breaks my heart more than anything. And not that I'm any closer to getting married than I was a year ago, if my boyfriend were to propose, I can't imagine going through all that wedding stuff...picking out the dress, reception halls, menus, table arrangements, etc., without my Mom. I wouldn't even want to. One more thing to be sad about and to miss her presence in my life.

I lost my mum 5 weeks ago, she was 67 and i am 31. I think the most heartbreaking thing is that she will never see me get married or meet my children. The thing i regret most it that i am a career girl and an umarried with no kids.