My brother has come home from his inpatient program, he seemed like he had gotten help.. until.. he had to go back home where my mom passed away in her bed. This is taking a tole on my brother (21). the boy can not function at all, he barely speaks, eats, sleeps. He is out of control far worse than I am. I still have to work and take care of my home and husband and dogs. My father who he lives with is sinking deeper into depression. My Dad misses my Mother so much. He is so alone with out her. He cries everyday. Him seeing my brother loose his mind is adding to he stress and heartache. I am in another state now, being a Navy wife I have no choices. I want to be there for them but don't know what else to do. I speak to them on the phone all day 10 times a day. But that of course dose not help. I have asked them to come live with me and they don't want to sell the house, yet the house is what send my brother into his deep deep depression. I have considered moving with them but would have to leave my husband behind in VA and see him on the weekends and thats only when he's not away. My family all live in MD and my dad and brother live in DE where my mother built her dream home at the beach. I have not set foot in that house since she fast, I just can't do it. Dad and Kyle come see me every other weekend,. We have always been such a tight family and my mother the glue. Now it is all crumbling around me and everyone's lives are falling apart more and more each day. My Dad sounds terrible every time we speak, and my brother just a mess. My family is huge with aunts and uncles and cousins and friends, huge support system, just that I don't want to take advantage of it. I am lost, confused and so lonely. I spend ever my time, thinking of mom and thinking of my family I can't seem to help. We are all just a mess. SHe has been gone 2 and 1/4 months and it feels like forever. I don't know how much longer I, and we can go on like this. It's getting bad. Nothing is helping, doctors, meds. nothing. I feel like the world as we know it will end or pass us by and we my family will be stuck in one spot forever....grief.
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