Yesterday was my daughters two month checkup. Driving home after the appointment I kept feeling like something wasn't right. Then I realized what it was. With my first daughter, after every checkup I would call my mother and tell her about it. How much she weighs, how tall she is, how bad I felt when they gave her her shots. It dawned on me like it does so many other times that I had no one to call to tell these things to, at least no one who whould appreiciate it as much as my mother would. It will be six months on the 20th, and I miss her more now then ever. There is just this lonliness that won't go away. Thats the only way I can describe it. I have my family, my kids, but there is no one who knows you better then your own mother, and when she's gone, it's just so lonely.
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