My mom passed away from breast cancer 7 weeks ago today on the 12th of March. She and I lived together with my 11 yeard old daughter for the last 2 years of her life. Mom had a real love for peach jello, apple sauce, ginger snaps, beef stew and Marie Callendar's chicken pot pies....so I made sure that I always had them in stock. A week before she died I was doing my weekly grocery shopping and almost hyperventilated because the store didn't have ginger snaps. I mean I was literally in tears...because in my mind, as long as I bought those foods...she wouldn't leave me. The manager knows me well and saw me crying the aisle and went in the back and found a package of the cookies ( he knew about my mom)...anyway she was never able to eat any of the things I bought that week because by then she had no appetite and was heavily medicated. Still, I can not bear the thought of throwing those things out, and I won't allow anyone else to eat them. I know, I know, it's kinda silly because she's passed on but to me they still belong to her. A family member asked me how long I planned to hold on to them and I didn't have an answer. I mean...does it matter? I know eventually I will have to throw them out or eat them or something but for now I'm holding on to any little thing that I can. I miss her so. More ramblings...thanks for reading.
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