Hi everyone, I'm new to this group! I lost my mom on 14th August this year due to a brain aneursym. It all happened so quick, it ruptured on the Monday and by the following Thursday she was dead. I visited her in ICU many times just to sit and talk to her but I'm struggling to accept that she is gone. She was herself right up to the surgery, apart from a severe headache and after the surgery when I saw her she was paralysed on one side and I could barely understand her. It was horrific. The following day she had a massive stroke and was declared brain dead. We spoke every day on the phone, sometimes 3 or 4 times and we saw each other once a week. I always asked her advise about everything. What makes it more difficult is I have a 6 month old son who she absolutely adored - we had so many plans for him, watching his first steps, his first birthday etc. I'm struggling to cope at the minute, it's difficult to look at my son when all I think about is what she'll be missing out on!
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