Ever since mum went, my life just seems to be going downhill. It isn't getting easier. If anything it is getting harder and I want mum back more than ever. I have a hip problem and my idiotic doctor just couldn't care less. He won't get me to have an x-ray for some unknown reason. He wants me to go to Rehab. I am having problems with my transfering ( for those who don't know I am disabled with Muscular Dystrophy). My doctor seems to think that they may be able to find another way for me to transfer but the way I am doing it now is the only way I know how. I have to go slow and getting off the shower chair is the worst one. I have had to cut my showers down to two days a week and a wash on Wednesdays to save any pressure on my hip. I know that the other hip will eventually go the same. I am not going to rehab. I will get another doctor to be my new doctor. This one is so dumb. I am looking down the barrel of going into a nursing home as I don't know how much longer I can keep transfering the way I am. My hip will get worse. Rehab won't do anything fix the hip. He is just so stupid and uncaring. I just hate it so much and to top it all off Home Care is changing things around again and it just sux big time. I have to get used to new ladies coming in to shower me. It is just ridiculous. Why can't they just leave it as it is? All this and mum isn't here. I miss her so much. It isn't fair, so not fair.
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