I'm the eldest daughter and I'm use to taking care of my 3 younger sisters, my old brother, and even my father. All through her life, I never had to take care of my mother until she was diagnosed with cancer. Soon I was the main caretaker for her and even became her medical proxey and had to make some hard decisions. Even after she died, I made all the decisions in regards to her funeral. Now that she's gone, I still have the need to take care of everyone else. I only cry at home when I'm by myself and even my live in boyfriend of 6 years can't see. Outside of home, I put on such a front like nothing is wrong but I feel so broken inside. Sometimes I feel there is no one I can really talk to because I have to be strong for my family. But it's so hard, I feel like the only person who took care of me is gone and I have no one else. Is hiding my pain for the sake of others harmful?
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