I know I haven't been on here much recently, I haven't had a lot time to be online, but I really need some help right now. My dreams have been disturbing to me lately. They have fueled a slight depression in me that I thought I had overcome. Last night's dream was the worst. In my dream my Mom wasn't gone. She had survived the hemorrhage in her brain, and was only slightly handicapped. She had all of her brain functions abd was only handicapped on one side of her limbs. She was staying in a rehab center or a nursing home of some sort. In my dream she as playing the steel guitar and singing. She didn't do these things in her life, but always loved this instrument. My grandma, my mom's Mom, was also there (She passed last February, 9 months before Mom)and she looked like she did 15 years ago. She was taking care of my Mom. I remember thinking in my mind that we needed to contact the insurance companies and things to let them know that she wasn't dead. Then I was thinking that the insurance company would want the life insurance money back. I felt guilty for thinking about that when I was so happy to have her back. I also felt guilty for making the decision to take her off life support since she lived through it. I feel like I am going crazy. I know she is gone, so I wake up wondering if it was real or not. I miss her so much this time of year because she loved summer so much. I feel like I am losing my mind. Can someone please help me.
Posts You May Be Interested In