I don't know what to do. I don't know who to call, who to talk to. I just miss mom so much. I need her in my life so bad. I can't stand my dads wife and i need to get away but i'm stuck here for 2 more years. I can't do this anymore. It's too much. I hate living here, i want my sister to come home from college but i know that wouldn't even help, i just need my mom. I need to know her. I need someone to talk to, someone who won't tell me my moms in a better place or that it's all part of Gods plan. Because really, i don't know what i believe when it comes to God, because, why would someone cause so much pain? Everywhere you look there is pain and suffering. Why would someone take my mom from me? From my sister? Why would someone stand back and watch my parents divorce? Watch my life fall apart, watch my sister slowly kill herself? I just wish i could talk to someone who would just tell me what i'm feeling is okay, not that everything will be okay, because it won't, just that maybe, just maybe, i'm not the only one like this. I just want someone to care.
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